Tuesday 10 February 2009

numb

I wish I could get drunk without severe depression kicking in. I miss alcohol being my escape. I know that's not sensible or productive, but I miss having an escape.

I feel sick, and I'm so tempted to make myself throw up again. Bingeing and purging - what a great habit to get into considering my (so called) best friend is a (so called) recovering anorexic bulimic.

2 comments:

ellie said...

Thank you for the sweet comment you left on my blog!

I can really (REALLY) relate to wanting some kind of escape...it's really hard to resist the temptation of things that you know will provide some sort of short term relief. I try to keep reminding myself that yeah, the key words there are SHORT-term.

Hang in there...sending love and strength your way xxx

Katie said...

You're definitely right about short term being the key point/problem. And you're welcome, I think you're doing amazingly well and you have such a good attitude :)