Monday 1 December 2008

hope

I seem to have lost all hope over the last few days. I used to believe that things would get better, I used to believe that the fight was worth it, and now I've lost and it and I don't know how to get it back.

I'm tired. I'm tired of struggling, of being like this, of hating myself. I just want to be someone else for a while.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

It is exhausting, but let yourself rest. Fighting this thing doesn't have to mean a 24/7 vigilante type system. You need the rest, but don't give in to the darkness. Just give in to the rest.

chelsea said...

I agree with perfectlycursed. And oh but if I could give in to that rest, how I would. I am running on less than fumes in my tank. I don't know how I wake up and do it all over again day in and day out, with not so much as a single smile passing across my lips. I'm tired. I want that rest.